If anyone looked at me they would think I am an ordinary college student. I wake up every morning wishing to get a couple more seconds of sleep. I make my way to school I listen, I learn, I make my way back home and I study, or depending on the day I go to work. Some days are as simple and relaxing as these, but some are not. Some days I wish to get hours of sleep, I can sleep for 9 hours and still manage to not want to get out of bed. If I could I would just lay there all day and cry. But it is days like these that I know I have to motivate myself the most. I have recently been able to accept that I have depression. Depression has been haunting me all my life. When I was around the age of 10 I wrote a note to my sister explaining to her that I did not want to be alive anymore. Though I do not remember how I felt at the time I do know that a child should never have to feel that way. I was never abused, my parents loved me and my sister loved me, it is difficult to wrap my head around why I felt that way as a child. Throughout middle school I remember I would cry to my best friend, Maria during lunch time in hopes to have some of the pain subside. Most of what I went through at that age is a blur, but I remember it involved a lot of teasing and bullying. The hardest part of my 20 years of being alive was during high school. …show more content…
Depression is something I have to deal with every day, some more than others. I do not think I can say I have escaped depression because it still haunts me but I know one day I will escape. I have grown to understand that I need to love myself and not let negative thoughts attack me and chain me down. Because of my experience with depression it help me decide what I wanted to do as a career and that is to become a teacher. During high school my grades would be slipping, but no one ever asked me why or even motivated me to work harder. I would like to be that support for children one
Being a first generation college student was a big challenge for me. A new life ahead of me had just started, it was like a new book with a new page on it. I started off going to community college which was such a big impact in my life, I was able to learn many valuable things that at the beginning I wasn't prepared for. I want to make a bigger impact not only for my self but for others as well. I want to motivate people that no matter what gets in the way, or the circumstances we are facing, we can all fight for what we want.
I graduated back in 2013 from a pretty decent school district. During high school I wasn’t an A student or a B student, I just did what I needed in order to pass. Once I got to my junior of high school I started taking things more seriously, I started making A’s and B’s. Once my senior year started the pressure was on. Everyone asking “what college are you thinking about attending?”
It seems the older I get, the less assurance I have of anything. And believe me, when I was younger, I had nothing but assurance. Still, that‘s not too surprising considering a large portion of my education was spent in a private religious school, and anyone that has been involved with “faith based education” knows there’s little room for doubt. I mean it‘s not called faith based for nothing! I was being taught absolute truths, there was little room for scientific inquiry.
Whether directing a choir, directing a musical or teaching college level courses, my desire is to educate those who have entrusted their education into my hands. Serving in different areas of ministry, my philosophy was always to educate others. As a funeral director, I had the opportunity to help guide families through one of the most difficult times. I could have continued serving in the capacity; however, I wanted people everywhere to experience a first class funeral director. As a result, I began my journey as a funeral service education instructor.
All throughout school I strived to be a great student, always trying my best and never giving up. I didn’t really have any life changing moments that shaped me into who I am today that is, until freshman year. That year everything changed for me I was faced with challenges I never had to face before. My brother and I are three in a half years apart and he went to Horizon High School for his freshman and sophomore year. He was a troublemaker to say the least didn’t have the best reputation so all the teachers there thought that I was just like him.
When I was in elementary school, the thought of going to middle school had excited me, but little did I know that with a lot of excitement and happiness came pain and anguish. Being very young, I had never had any experiences with bullying or even depression, but throughout my three years, I had experienced both. When I left elementary school, I had the mindset that no matter how rude someone was towards you, you have to suck it up and still stay true to yourself. No matter what happened do not ever stoop down to their level and do not ever change who you are. I was eleven years old when I entered sixth grade at Lawrence Middle School.
Depression is the number one disorder to take over a person's life, I didn’t allow it to take over mine. I became clinically depressed in the seventh grade, just as my emotions decided to take over. I was always the girl who valued her grades and planned for the future, but depression started to grasp me and keep me from pursuing my morals of a good education. When I noticed how low my grades would get, realization hit me like a brick to the face, I wasn't going to allow my depression to steal my dreams from me. The disorder we call depression killed my hope, left me crying constantly, but it made me push myself to get better grades and gives me opportunities for the future.
It’s a terrible feeling. It’s not something you can just automatically know how to deal with. I’ve been battling Depression for maybe five or six years now. And in those years I’ve grown weaker and weaker from it. It shuts me down at any time, gives me frequent panic and anxiety attacks, and doesn’t go away easy.
Admission Essay I am an international student who have been in the United States for six years. My plan is to transfer to an university to achieve an undergraduate degree in Marketing. I am originally from Vietnam and my family has a business of producing and exporting furnitures overseas. We have been taking orders from foreign countries such as New Zealand, Australia, and America.
I mainly became a college student because my father had the resources for me to be able to apply with some scholarships. Without that, I'm not sure I would be here, because my family is very against student loans. My mom really pushed me to go to college as well, but I too have the interest in getting my first degree. My mother, father, and two older sisters have all had some college education. I'm not sure if this influenced me in anyway, besides one of my older sisters having trouble finishing her online courses.
Depression can cause severe symptoms that can affect how you feel, think, and handle your daily activities. Depression is always accompanied by sense of suffering as well as the belief that escape from it, is hopeless.
And already it’s that time of the year again. Break out those notebooks and sharpen your pencils because class is in session. Like many of us, who have been there and done that, my initial reaction was a couple groans and more than a few cries of despair (look, I’m just not ready to fight with Microsoft Word at two am, for a paper that is due in six hours), but, I have come to the conclusion that with each new semester comes new opportunities; new ways to improve myself from last semester. And though it is stressful at times, I can recognize that my education is a gift, especially here at Aquinas. As a junior I feel I have picked up some tricks of the trade to help survive throughout my stay here, and I feel it is my duty to disclose a couple
It has been almost ten years since my first battle with depression. For three months I was totally debilitated. At the time I remember thinking, feeling and believing that my life would never be the same again. But to my complete and utter amazement I eventually found help that restored my mind and body to a normal state. It seemed like a miracle at the time, but that was before I learned about the condition.
Sometimes you can’t. To imagine depression, imagine being buried alive. You wake up in the dark. Confused, you feel the walls around you realizing you are in a tight space. You begin to struggle, heart rate and breathing picking up, pushing with all your strength, but the walls won’t budge.
Sometimes, I do feel depressed, and even though U have been prescribed antidepressants. I refuse to use them, a fact I’m incredibly proud of. I learned so much from everything that happened, but it’s difficult to put onto paper. I’ve escaped from the dark hole I fell into, and refuse to go down that dark path in honor of my beloved Ruby Mama.