Being Fat Analysis

To be fat is being less than human. It is to have people spew hatred and venom at you, then expect you to eat it and digest it. They expect you to let it consume you like you consume everything else. They think that if they say really mean things to you, that you’ll get up off the couch and you’ll quit eating those Bon Bons while collecting food stamps and watching Jerry springer. Because that’s all you ever do right? It isn’t possible for you to hold a job, nothing is possible except what they say. They don’t care that you could be depressed, suffering from an eating disorder or other health issues. Never mind that you shower, sometimes twice a day, you’re dirty. Disgusting. A Lowlife. To be fat means being well-fed and to have a disdain for working out or anything physical. Fat in its most positive form is still isolating. It still divides, it separates. Relegated

Fat. Fat is to never be good enough, therefore always picked last in gym class, always passed over for a job, always the friend and never the girlfriend. Fat is synonymous with manly, you could never be beautiful --- not like other girls. They’re the slim ones that make you go with them shopping even though you can’t fit into any of the clothes. The size small that ask you “does this make me look fat?” Rolling my eyes, trying to contain the tears. Fat. Fat is more than physical. It may also describe your soul because if you 're fat, you 're automatically a bad person. Your heart is never in the right place. To be fat is to open yourself up to scrutiny. You scare them, you’re a monster. It’s as if you and their nightmares are one in the same. It is leaving you up for constant judgement as if your being fat will in any way affect the lives of those who make it their business. Nothing but a lumpy pillow for people to punch as they please, and like that pillow, you’ll never bounce back. It stays with you and it shrinks you until you feel smaller than that morsel of food you can’t help but put in