"It 's been awhile, a long while since I felt what freedom, true freedom felt like. Just know in the last moments of my life--I felt free. Free from the stress and the guilt that has been eating me alive for the past couple of years. I knew that I did what I had to do to keep my club and family surviving. I know I couldn 't be with my family anymore because I never want my boys to know this life.
Honestly, being here made me wish a thousand times that I would’ve focused on being someone inspiring to young and older generations a long time ago. Before coming to Job Corps, I had days when I was so depressed, I just stop doing what was right and from that point on, the street was the only I saw myself. The family was my enemy, friends were no longer there, at least the ones I thought I had. I didn’t want to talk to anyone because I had nothing positive to say. I can honestly say my biggest mistake I made as youngster, was me giving up on school.
It’s your choice and you can always do it the next day. However, when, due to an injury, you’re unable to even jog across your living room, it becomes maddening. It’s like having withdrawal symptoms from a powerful drug. The year I was unable to run, was one of the worst years of my life, both physically as well as mentally. Running, at that point, was pretty much my whole life, and when that was taken away, I essentially had nothing left.
People make promises that they will not keep but that does not mean you are allowed to give up. Staying determined and never giving up is key to being a great leader, once you have done everything to help somebody as a leader then it is up to them but never give in before the job is
Being the eldest and the first in my family to be this near to a college education has certainly filled my life with loads of stress and responsibilities. Given the fact that I will be the first to attend college, my family never prepared, or planned, for the task of paying for such high college expenses. Thankfully, my family and I have had enough to provide ourselves with basic needs throughout the years but have never been financially stable enough to provide for nonessential items. I am satisfied with all the hard work I have been able to accomplish and I do not intend to let my financial status define the amount of education I am able to attain. Therefore, I am willing to put in extra time and effort to sign up for as many scholarships as I possibly can.
However, the first few track meets of the season this did show at all. For some reason I could not put it all together in the competition setting and ended up not clearing any bar the two first meets in a row. I felt like giving up, I had put my heart and soul into this and was not getting anywhere near the results I had expected. Even though I was at my lowest point I knew I loved the sport far too much to ever quit,
Usually, after the fights, we would continue to act like nothing ever happened at all. In that moment, I felt like if I came back to finish the fight, our friendship would never be the same. “After that day, I decided to quit karate for good. I knew a good amount of techniques. I decided it was enough to protect myself, so I quit.
I believe I have always pursued for what is best for me and I continue to do so. Dedicated is what I like to describe myself as, whether it is in school or at work. I will always accomplish more than I can, without the help of others. It gives me value for being an independent person, which I believe makes me stand out from other candidates. Not only that, I enjoy managing to do certain task and duties on my own, because I enjoy the after feeling of success and the opportunity to help others after.
I have held my head up and I have taken the high road each and every time that I have been lashed at or belittled or downright demeaned. I did this not because I feel it is what I deserve, but because I recognize that although I can 't change the action, I can choose how I handle it. I know my worth and I no longer look for it in the people and the city that tried to sentence me to a life of misery solely because I lost my way a long time ago. I am a damn good person and I won 't grant anyone the power to make me loose sight of that. All in all, coming back home has opened my eyes to a lot and has left me with lessons I could have only learned in doing so.
I hardly find myself in trouble, sometimes though I forget to do my homework, all together, I will try my hardest and I never give up on anything, which sometimes doesn't help. In my entirety, I will work my hardest to have my things done. My parents said just about the same details I did which surprised me. I wasn't aware I knew myself so well. Well of course it wasn't exactly a carbon copy I left some specific thoughts out because I especially did not want to ramble on….