Personal Narrative: A Mother's Love

People say that there is nothing quite like a mother’s love for her child. A child puts all their trust in their mother from an early age, from that very moment they look into her eyes. That is how it was for me, in my eyes you could do no wrong. You were kind and caring towards me. You made sure I was taken care of clothed, fed, and healthy. I trusted you whole heartedly that you did what you could for me and that you always had my best interest in mind. I always thought you would put me before you, because that’s what a mother does, she wants the best for her child, but you didn’t. I know I couldn’t have everything as a child, but all I truly wanted was your support. When did I realize that this wasn’t the case in my life and that I had a

I received more motherly love from my friend’s mothers growing up then I did from you. You said you are jealous and sorry you couldn’t give me what my other friend’s mothers could give them like clothes, toys, family vacations, but I did not need any of that. I just needed you, your support, your love, you to put me first. I hope that you don’t realize this and that you are blind to it because if you knew how I felt, I hope you would have tried to do better. I am now 21, and I tell myself I am old enough and it is okay if I do not have your support. I have done so much on my own and I also have had so much help from my extended family. I will be graduating in December 2018, and with a bachelor’s of Allied Health from Otterbein. I did that all on my own, I took these classes and, I paid my way, through, of course I will have accrued a lot of debt, but at least I did it. You have always would told me how proud you are of me, and how you brag about me and me being your daughter. And isn’t that what every daughter wants for her mother to tell them they are proud of them, but why is it that I don’t feel anything when you say that. Maybe because I have been lied to and betrayed so many times by you that is has ruined our relationship as mother and daughter. I put all my trust in you as a child, and you let me down. I don’t wish to hurt you, that is the last thing I want, but I need to keep thinking about myself since I cannot rely on you to do so. Dale has told me for years that I am just your carpet and I let you walk all over me, but no more I have started to rely on myself and take leaps in my own life. I will no longer say I am trying, I will do it. I show this with my first leap in choosing to go to college. No matter what though you will always be my mother, you will always be the one that helped raise me and no matter what you do I will be thankful for you, but the pain I have in my