Since my spiritual journey started, I have been on a purge. My journey started at the end of 2011. Why am I telling you this? 2011 is the year of This was the beginning of entering the fifth dimension. For many people, this shift could be experienced as catastrophic. In the end of 2011, I got injured. I got into an accident and broke my spoke bone. I couldn’t write or work anymore because my fingers and arm weren’t working properly. After the accident, many dramatic incidents came onto my path. It made me feel like trouble was looking for me. It felt like I’ve been attacked by bad luck and misfortune. Then one day, another argument, another disappointing or dissatisfying situation entered my life, I could not bear it anymore. I decided it was enough. Most of all. I could not recognize myself anymore. It felt like I was living in a hostile world, being completely imprisoned by people I could not identify with. At the same time, I experienced so many disappointments and struggles, I started to lose my interest in life. I questioned myself every day. Is it normal to lose interest in everything that you used to love? I didn't get an answer ... I knew I was lost because I couldn't hear my own voice anymore. That moment, that day, my deepest wish for myself was liberation from suffering. …show more content…
Anyone who has ever been through a spiritual purging before knows exactly what I’m talking about. However, if you’ve never experienced it, just hold on, because it’s a part of the spiritual growth process in your conscious life. It’s the part where the things that are not good for you have to be removed from our lives to produce spiritual
Losing the Faith? During difficult times, many people turn to their faith in order to help themselves deal with the situation that they are going through. However, difficult times may cause people to stray away from their faith or forget about their beliefs all together. In his novel, Night, Elie Wiesel describes in detail his time spent in a concentration camp.
I looked different, and was treated differently. I was often bullied for who I was and thought the best way to make it stop, was to fit in. I started wearing similar clothing, walking, talking and acting like the kids around me. I had lost whom I was, was no better assimilated, and was still picked on. I had enough.
One week, they took me to a clinic because my body just shutdown. But even worse, the day I almost couldn 't take it anymore was when my dad went to the U.S but we couldn 't join him because didn 't have papers. Literally from there, everything was pitch black to me and I stayed from school for a couple of weeks. From then on, I completely rejected God. All my life I was a good child
Instead I was surrounded by an endless sorrow. I couldn't bear it. I broke off my meditation. I couldn't go on.
“I have learned that the Father relentlessly works to reshape his blood-brought children into the likeness of his son...our task, however, is not merely to endure suffering, but to embrace it, find God on it and draw closer to him through it. Simply put, ‘There is no remedy for this darkness but to sink in it.” A quote from Bruce Demarest, found in his book Seasons of the Soul, discusses the three stages of spiritual development, orientation, disorientation, and reorientation. Disorientation is the stage where trials and sufferings are faced, but most importantly, a stage where we use our pains and sufferings to help us grow. Murray Decker explains disorientation as a stage of “lostness and dryness.”
I remember feeling like my life was over. Like I am fresh
I’m laying on the ground my ears are ringing as I slowly get to my feet I notice a sharp pain in my left arm. This whole idea was put in my head about a month before. Recently, at 5:30 I am sitting under a pavilion listening to the rock and roll music blasting in the background while eating a bagel I 'm not saying much I am looking back at the my first year of riding and wonder how i got to wear i am today, awaiting the start of my first 100 mile mtb race, i recognize how breaking my arm was instrumental to my success as a mountain biker.
It was a hard time for me and my surroundings, and for my body,
I do not have enough energy and I have been wasting away ever since I left my Reverend. I think this decision I made has come back to haunt me and I think it will continue to haunt me until the day I
I felt completely out of place, everyone kept staring at me. I felt their eyes follow my every move, every where I turned there would be someone watching me as if I were about to steal something or commit a
Relinquishing the selfish desires that consume one’s soul, result in a loss in
I was still half asleep and I missed having a simple cup of coffee You. never realize how much you take for granted until it all gets taken away. I was still adjusting to not having all of my belongings and my regular schedule. Such as no sleep because of all the horrific thoughts going through my mind, at first I wasn’t sure if that was normal but apparently it is.
Redemption was the only answer that will stop one’s suffering and gain peace with their internal
This event changed my life for the better and without going through that tough time I would not have been able to see the light of all situations, in reality and when I
The term “spiritual formation” can mean diverse things to different people. For me as a Christian, spiritual formation is the process by which God forms a person into His image. The goal of formation, as expressed by Ashbrook (2009), is “a Love Relationship with God…to live fully and freely in His love, and to respond by loving Him as well” (p. 26). Many experiences, both positive and negative, shape an individual’s relationship with God. The journey of formation will be distinctive, and often enigmatic except in hindsight, for each individual.