Identity In 'Graph' By Tila Tequila

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Jaharutul Fariah Identity is a word that we all find it difficult to define unlike any other words in a dictionary because it’s indescribable. We all define it differently according to what we think is right and it continuously changes as we progress. As stated by Tila Tequila, “every person has their own identity and beauty. Everyone being different is what is really beautiful. If we were all the same, it would be boring.” I also have an identity that started to change when I made the decision to wear a hijab. A hijab is defined as an “head covering scarf that some Muslim women wear in public.” However, to me it is more than just that. It signifies and defines me in many unspeakable ways. Hijab denotes a sense of modesty and freedom. I…show more content…
The most exhausting activity is pretending to be what you know you aren’t." Being the stubborn girl that I was, I took off the mask that my true identity was hiding under which impressed all but myself. I began to learn things on my own as I awaken to the fact that I myself have an identity and that it cannot just be copied from others. I will never forget the experience of putting a cloth on my head and feeling like I 've been born again. It was a feeling of gratification and delectation. I dedicated myself to wear modestly as I freed myself from vainglory, arrogance and pomposity. Hijab made me more conservative and not take things for granted. Whenever I had the hijab on, I felt complete and at ease. However, it also made me scared and tremble to the thought of being ostracized. I got many looks and judgements from people both in the subway and in school. Many even told me, "go back to where you came from". I wanted to shout from the top of my lungs that "I belong here, I belong to a society where I have the right to freedom of religion and that I also add to the "melting pot" that they all feel proud of". Nonetheless, I stayed quiet as if the cat got my tongue. As time progressed, I got used to the stares and also became friends with many who also wore the hijab. Together we somehow felt strong and unbreakable. We inspired each other as we started to learn more about the hijab and what it
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