Personal Narrative: My Alienating Factors In My Life

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I feel alienated in a lot of different environments such as my family. Most people look up to their parents or they feel able to talk to them about certain issues. I haven’t had that kind of bond in a long time with them. I’ve never felt like I could speak my mind. To me no matter what I said it was always wrong somehow. Even though I know it’s not, I have this aching fear that I am wrong. I’m always looking for support, but my parents aren’t people I see as supporting factors in my life. Even though I know that as parents they’d support me through anything, although it’s hard to feel it when it seems like my mom doesn’t support a simple religious decision. I think that a part of me feels missing because I’m missing this connection. In the end I want them to be there for me, to be the parents in movies …show more content…

As extroverted as I am sometimes I wish I had a tight knit friendship. Before this year I didn’t have one set of friends I was committed to. I wanted to fill a void I would run around trying to find a person that fit my other half. I was different from everyone, I didn 't really like the same hobbies as anyone. I would hang out with Ianna, Iris, Emily, etc. I felt like I was embarrassing them. I wasn’t as girly as Emily, did I belong? It seemed like they were stuck with me rather than choosing to hang out with me. Even when I was with them I would feel alone. If I was hanging out with Emma and all her friends, I was an odd one out I couldn’t play the part. During seventh grade I sit with Emma, Ezzy, Jasmine, and a couple others. They had some drama I wasn’t a part in. When I would finally sat down next to them they would be really to talk it out. This happened time and time again, at the time I didn’t know there was drama. Were they leaving, because I was there? Did they not like me? I felt isolated away from everyone, if they would leave me did anyone else want to be my

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