'A Gap Of Sky' By Anna Hope

”A Gap of Sky”

As a teenager, you search for answers to everything you do not know. It is important to find out what you stand for and how you want to live your life, which is a part of the process of becoming a grown up. Then again, it is not always that easy. “A Gap of Sky” is written by Anna Hope in 2008. Ellie has to write an essay, but cannot since she has not more ink. Therefor she walks around in the streets of London and tries to find a store selling ink. She consider whether she should write the essay or not.

The narrator is a third-person narrator. We follow the point of view of Ellie and the reader follows her thoughts, reflections, observations and actions. The style is, because of the use of stream of consciousness, characterized

She is raw and is not very good against herself. “She thinks of the hall toilet, at the other end of a chilly, uncarpeted corridor, and thinking better of it, hoists herself over the sink, turns on the tap, and lets rip a glorious streamy stream of relief” (line 5-7). She lives in a dorm room, where the toilet is so low, at a time that she did not had energy enough to go down. It is not a particularly comfortable place. “One gummy eye stares warily back at her. There are clumps of black in the corner of her eyes, clumps of yellow lacing her lashes” (line 7-9). She does not even have dared or bothered to take her makeup off, after she had been in town. When she have mood swings; she goes from being happy, and next moment she is very negative and angry at the world. Ellie has a difficult life due she takes drugs and drink. That is why she cannot really remember much. ”Coke. Does she have any left? Find the wrap, in the bra. The bra, in a tender little pile on the floor, curled around her knickers. Yessssss! Clever Ellie.” (line 30-32). One of the first thing she thinks about is whether she has any cocaine. She has a desperation to get hold of it, and seems almost addicted to

At first, she thought it was a ridicules gift. It dawns on her that her mother wanted to share her love, but she just took it for granted. “Whatever it was still an expression of something, of her mother, of her love, and Ellie had just shoved it away, taken it for granted” (line 111). She can imagine her mother and honor her. ”. Realizes this is some-thing she can do.” (line 116). At that moment, she notices that there is an opportunity to make things correct again, and shows that she appreciates what she has previously taken for granted. This shows us that she did not had a good relationship to her mother, since she did not care about her, as much as she now does. At the end of the essay, she feels a connection between her and everyone around her. “Feels as though everyone must be able to see this substance she has inside her, wants people to see it” (p. 4, ll. 117-118). The people Ellie meets are filled with this same substance, and have a common connection. She suddenly feels how is love flying between them. She goes from an young lady to a grown