Personal Narrative-Lucy Wants To Die

Lucy wants to die

After this night, when she got to her apartment, she decided that she would end her life.

She is sitting at the bar’s counter. She is on her fourth beer. The ashtray in front of her doesn’t have space anymore for a cigarette butt. She still has one pack of Marlboro Reds beside the beer. Her mind is slowly going numb. A soft psychedelic music is playing on her background. She can’t figure out the song but she is sure that she already heard that before in radio. It is not important now, she just want to forget what happened to her.

Her phone rang. Rick, her ex.

Hey I’m sorry, I should have said that a long time ago but I was thinking of your feelings. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to do it. Please call me I want to talk to you.

She lights another cigarette and let out a cloud of smoke. She just wants to shut the world around her. She doesn’t know anyone that

They said their goodbyes to each other. He went to the left of the street and she on the other said.

She really felt surreal went she touched his hand and his name, Why would someone name their son as Death. She looked back and he was already gone. When she faced the road again the guy is already in front of her.

“Miss me?” he said.

She chuckled. “I’m not I am just wondering where are you going next”

“None, actually I’m would just walk around. I thought that you would be going home. Did your parents would not be waiting for you?” he said while trying to hide his smirk in front of her.

“Uhmm actually they just died a week ago. They died in car an accident.” She looked down, trying to fight back her tears. “It was a senseless death. I don’t know. I think someone is playing on me. There so many things that happened this past few days. And they are all happening at once.”

“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean say it” He touched her shoulders. She is still looking on the ground.

“No, I just want someone to talk to. It’s very hard for me carry it all.