That call can be our own need to do stuff because some situations in our life forces us to do it. We don’t ever choose our own call to adventure, it’s literally given to us without us asking. As I mentioned above, my parents weren’t fortunate enough to go to school and get educated. They moved to America so that we could be given that opportunity to go to school and have a better life. I never really took school seriously, I never even dreamt of being a college student, I wasn’t motivated.
The other kids were allowed to select the best costumes while we got nothing. Esther said it was because we didn 't deserve it. My brothers and I returned more belittled than ever before. From that day on, my brothers and I tried our hardest to deserve the same things the other kids were entitled to have. We worked hard until Christmas, yet we received nothing because we were just guests and worthless in their eyes.
“‘If this thing’s hushed up it’ll be a simple denial to Jem of the way I’ve tried to raise him. Sometimes I think I’m a total failure as a parent, but I’m all they’ve got. Before Jem looks at anyone else he looks at me, and I’ve tried to live so I can look squarely back at him… if I connived at something like this, frankly I couldn’t meet his eye, and the day I can’t do that I’ll know I’ve lost him. I don’t want to lose him and Scout, because they’re all I’ve got(Pg. 314).”’ Atticus always had a sureness to himself and lets that go in this moment.
I replied him yes you are right. He further continued his story. Same was my situation when I was there where I can’t do anything for my mother and myself. Thinking all this made me feel all alone. I then somehow gather the power and decided to struggle for my livelihood and my mother.
Last year I realized I lost and had no friends, I started to get depressed and did not want to do anything anymore. I learned that this was a crisis and my adrenaline started pumping. It took me awhile to figure out I do not need anybody that does not need me. I learned that once something bad happens, you realize you are not alone in this world. Everything happens for a reason, good or bad.
And if you ain’t learned that, you ain’t learned nothing. Have you cried for that boy today? I don’t mean for yourself and for the family ‘cause we lost the money. I mean for him: what he been through and what it done to him.”(145) Even when Walter is at his darkest moment, and he has crossed Mama, she still tells Beneatha to show empathy for him. He tried to live his dream, and took a leap of faith, but everything had been stolen away from him.
It is through this knowledge that I have learned to overcome discrimination and the uncertainty of living in the shadows. I experience rejection and discrimination throughout the formative years when my character was being built, but that allowed me to become the person I am today. No more than a year ago, I thought all my hard work was in vain. My visa was about to expire and immigration denied me a renewal of my student visa due to my family’s low income level. Without any legal documentation stating I could be in this country, I was afraid I would not be able to continue my education or obtain a job in my desired field.
Now, remembering how I acted before I am consumed with guilt. I knew my parents tried their best for me, but I was selfish and complained. I realize their hardships and sacrifices they made to make my life better. By the time I started school, there was a disconnect with my peers. I could understand what was being said to me, but I could not communicate.
My marriage to him was pre-decided by my family, organizing my life without asking me about it. This made me want anything other than to meet you, but i was forced to for my future and well-being. I was not one to easily fall in love, with my personality and lazy efforts love was not easy for us to achieve, but as Hamlet Snr stayed with me and constantly showed affection for me, i found myself, unwillingly but truly falling in love. Although i have told you before, i again am sorry for all the stress that I had put you through before our marriage. I still remember the day that we met, standing face to face, a whisker from each other, your parents behind you and mine behind myself.
I was a mess. I isolated myself from my friends and family and I refused to tell anyone what my mom was going through. It seemed as though my whole life was falling apart and I yearned for a happy family. I thought that if I didn’t talk about it, it wouldn’t exist and I