I never thought my parents would get in a divorce. In fact, when I was younger I did not think parents ever got divorced. I was very upset and I felt like the whole thing was my fault. When I started fifth grade, I used to get dismal about the divorce and it started to affect my behavior at home and at times, it would even affect my attitude at school. My mom informed the school counselor and arranged for me to meet with the counselor weekly to express how I was feeling.
For the past five years, I have watched my amiable grandmother unconditionally care for my ailing grandfather. My grandfather was diagnosed with alzheimer's and dementia. At the earlier stages of his sickness, I remember visiting for Easter when I was much younger. My parents told my brothers and I that grandpa probably will not remember our names but to be patient with him. I did not think too much of it since, at that time, my grandpa seemed to be his normal self.
God knows what he was doing, he choose you to come to him, so therefore we will have to trust him. And writing this may have been one of the hardest things yet, not knowing how to make this perfect enough, but I put a lot of thought into it for you Grandma. I wanted you to have something to read, for you to know how much we are gonna miss you, more than I bet you could imagine. Even tho on a good note, I could only think you 're sitting at your kitchen table right now telling Grandpa John, Jimmy, and Joe all the great times you had with us, because I sure know we will remember all the great times with you. So here this is for you Grandma, there may be many sleepless nights I lay awake thinking about you, hard days where I want to see you, times I cry to you, pray to you at night, just for you to realize there wont go one day where I won 't think about you, won 't miss you like crazy.
From time to time my grandpa would stop to visit and take us to his ranch; those were the good old days. My relationship with my grandfather was unique in a way, sometimes he would be there and sometimes he we would not. He was the closest thing I had to having a grandpa and so I loved him regardless of his absence in my life. I felt no need to judge him and none to question him for the choices he made, he was the father of my father; therefore, I respected him. Thinking back, I remember when he use to take us fishing that must have been ten years ago.
Isolated without his family, he wants to be part of nature once again. He is contemplating leaving and going back to the life he knows. It is too difficult to deal with this confusing, restricting, and insulting lifestyle. I have never had drastic changes from one extreme to another as this young man has, but I came to a compromise for the sake of a relationship with my family and it took a long journey to discover this. This young man cannot understand why the people he has come to know, cannot be happy with their lives.
My parents hid their grief as far as I was aware. Skip to ten years later when my dad 's father died. While I did not know this grandfather much better than I had known the other, my family 's grief was much more obvious to me. Seeing my father be emotional for one of the first times in my life hit me like a brick. That innocent kindergartener who had no idea what was happening grew into a junior in high school who was well aware of the consequences of death and now had to deal
In less than 6 months I lost one set of my grandparents, losing my grandmother from a long, hard and painful battle against lung cancer. Then her husband passing away less than 6 months later from multiple health problems. Death is a long, complicated and hurtful thing to deal with but just like the people in the poem they found comfort in the small things. After my grandmother died, my family kept seeing butterflies, my grandmother loved being outside and loved butterflies. So these small things made us feel like my grandmother was still around, even though you have lost someone there are many things that can remind you of them.
“I promise, son. In a time where I was trying to break down these effective words and understand them, suddenly my mother left. There was no clue to define where she was going and why. Days later, my grandfather was rushed to the hospital, and he was diagnosed with heart disease that eventually led to his death. At this point in my life, I did not know what to do.
All I remember from when I was little is moving from house to house. I never got to stay in one place for the same amount of time. The house wasn't in a good location or the school wasn't good enough or family was to far. I never really liked moving because it seemed like when I was just getting a friend group or finally getting settled in we had to move again. There was never a reason of why we had to move, I was told that we are moving soon.
In my personal life experience, I had to leave everything and anything. However, I do not regret in any way because it has taught me to be a more persistent person and able to deal with more than I ever though could be able to do. Although, in this past months, I saw how many friends walkinge away, since then, I began to see my family as my more valuable treasure. Now more than ever, my world’s view changes all over. I can relate this experience with my father’s stroke to as a good way in changing my life’s view because if this has never happen to me, I have never realized how strong I