Personal Essay: Moving Away From The Bible

I’ve just written to my impossibly difficult cousin about gratitude. I believe it has even more healing power than positive thoughts!

Your belief system is not weird. It’s easy to relate to. Many people seem to move away from formal religion, but most people cannot deny the fact that we have souls or a “higher body” that can experience and know more than our physical bodies. There is a strong tendency to move away from believing in satan - he is also not mentioned in the Bible much. Of course God is the Creator and He is in and around us. He is not a human, but He is a personality and spirit - but again, also not the human version of that. And the demons or dark forces - I would be open to the idea of my mind giving it these faces to go with

I did not read it or hear it, but it just happened. I heard God’s voice, I could see angels and demons and spiritual protection and during a stage in my life that I did not believe anything actively, I was cornered by that satanist. None of these are topics I’d raise with anyone. Simply because I myself would not have believed it if someone told me - I’d think it’s imagination running wild. I resisted “false” religion and pretentious churches and if I saw someone healed on TV or even in a church, I’d think it’s mass-hysteria, and this person will not keep it up for long. I still question everything. I won’t let a pastor touch me unless God shows me it’s

Our TV sermons and even the Copland magazines were always a few weeks or months behind. At one stage, I could not feel the power in his writing anymore. I thought it was me not being open enough. Then I had a dream of me going up the escalator, and Kenneth and Gloria (his wife) going down, I was excited to see them, and expected out spirits to meet. But his eyes were empty - he did not recognize God in another person, as one would expect. There was not prophetic statement, or anything that made me see God in him.

Very soon after, I heard about the troubles his church is going through, and how he has lost his way. It is a problem when people stop listening to God. We are not greater than our creator. People have incredible difficulty dealing with pride. I think it’s even more tricky than power and money, because it’s harder to identify. Because I do not see God as general energy that is made of love, etc. but rather as a personality who communicates, asks and answers, nudges and forces, I cannot imagine what it’s like to have that power within me and not needing God