It Became That Moment It became that death defying moment, the moment I never thought would become reality. I started to talk my worst enemy; Connor Streek. I was very chubby and couldn’t do a lot, I was very bad at sports and overall a big huge dobber. Connor and I used to always fight and scream across the classroom just to get the better of us. After we started talking he seemed cooler than I thought, we started to hang out and ride our rusty cheap scooters.
I was tore up and shaken but there was only one option, to get back up and finish. I clawed my way from dead last all the way up to seventh. While I was disappointed about missing out on the podium by only two spots this taught me to be more aware of my surroundings. Later that summer I decided to do a full preride of the race course. The challenge here was the logistics.
It's Me As if breaking an arm was not already hard enough. Having to move to a different state was the worst. I was going to be all alone. Just me and my mom its always been that way. I have never met or know who my dad is but what difference does it make.
During that period, all I ever wanted was somebody that listen to me and guide me on how to handle it, or rather, Talking Therapy. However, there wasn’t. I’m an only child which meant I had no siblings to talk to about it and I was afraid to tell my parents as I knew that they would have made a big fuss about it and during that time I was afraid of losing the friends I had if they knew I was a whistle-blower. Thus, I kept it all too myself and up till today, I keep my feelings and thoughts to myself. Perhaps that was the reason I changed, from an extrovert to an introvert.
I have never presented an issue which was even remotely connected to some aspect of science, so naturally, I was a bit nervous at the beginning, and I believe, anyone listening to my presentation could have told that. However, similarly to my first presentation, as I progressed forward with my topic, most of my nervousness went away, and I started to enjoy explaining ideas about the notion of consciousness to my audience. Unfortunately, due to my initial nervousness, similarly to my first presentation at class, I have left out thoughts that might have helped my audience to understand the notion of consciousness I presented, in greater depth. I hoped that the second time I would be able to stand in front of the class without any anxiety, and would be able to give a better presentation than last time. As I have mentioned, I was a bit nervous at the beginning of my presentation, and I believe that this could be the result of the fact that I have never presented scientific ideas, and I was very nervous about whether I would be able to convey Mr. Chalmers’ ideas understandably.
I did what I could, but it just wasn 't good enough. Of course, my parents wanted me to not go through that but there was nothing they could do. Quite honestly, I am glad that they couldn 't do anything about it, that was just something I had to go through. They could only be there to comfort me when I needed it. Going through that was not fun, but it made me grow and it developed my character and identity.
Although one’s choices can be either detrimental or benign to their lives, they have no correlation with their true disposition. Often one makes an ill advised decision to protect the ones that they love. In “Mama and Her Bank Account” it proclaims, “ ‘In all my life, I never been inside a Bank.’ And when I didn’t--couldn’t--answer; Mama earnestly said:’Is no good for little ones to be afraid--to not feel secure’”. One will often make a decision that others see as ill-mannered, in order to protect their loved one’s sense of security. Although the narrator of “No Ordinary Joe” has views that one can make ill advised decisions that can be detrimental to one’s character.
Because of my new situation of being alone for the first time in my life, I felt lost and looked for support from other people. I saw that moving to a friend’s place would satisfy me needs but it made my situation worse. Being a shy person, it was hard for me to approach and express my disagreements with my roommate, but this experience made me someone different about future situations as those. Nowadays if I need to express myself or need to say anything, I will say it. I still am me, but I am more open to deal with conflicts head on instead of accepting them.
In the beginning, of course I don’t feel like I want to do this presentation, or anything related to any subject that require me to do a presentation because nobody likes to do homework, or just study. That’s obvious, only when I do this with my team did I realize the important of teamwork, and the effort that I have to make in order for me and my team to give out the best