Personal Narrative: My Life In Elementary School

All of my friends in my elementary school believed me I was perfect. Off course, I was anything but perfect, but I was outstanding at what were important to be popular in elementary school. I was the fastest every time I ran. I got the highest score at every test. I was always making jokes to let everyone laugh. My friends and teachers regarded me as a naturally talented kid by the outward impressions, but they did not know how much effort I put in to be what they called a genius: running in a park after school, doing muscle training in my home, preparing and reviewing every lesson before going to bed and always looking for something funny to talk to my friends. To make sure, I did all of these just because I wanted to be better at everything

One day in my elementary school, when I made one mistake on Kanji test, which was really rare, my classmates and even my teacher were shocked at what had happened in front of their eyes. “How on earth Genji made a mistake in kanji test!” The hubbub in the classroom clawed my heart and made me feel shaky, which amplified my obsessions. These obsessive characters I acquired in the early stage of my life made me harder to live normally. I was always anxious if I was not making any mistakes. My life was depressive, but as the time went

Keeping on doing rehabilitation for 6months, I finally came back to practice; however, my body was completely different from before getting the injury. I could not catch up with my teammates. I fell from the top of the team to the bottom. “Is there any meaning to continue track & field? ” “What am I running for?” “Why am I feeling so pity?” I started asking essential questions to myself. To find the answers, I looked back my life. Then, I realized that I had been possessed by obsessional ideas since childhood. I had been missing my true intention to be better at everything, but instead I had been trying to please everybody around me, which must be impossible to do. Moreover, I realized that I was thirsty for praise from others. “I am not running to be faster than others to be praised. I am just running to be faster. Although I am not able to run like I used to, I can still improve myself.” Finally, I rediscovered my belief and started to move forward again. It was at the very last meet that I finally broke my “not injured ” record. Having seen myself struggling for a long time, my friends and coach were extremely excited to see me breaking the record. My heart was filled with soft and warm liquid, which was the feeling of true confidence. “You gave me a hope” My kouhai, who had been suffering from injuries like me said to me. It was the happiest moment in my life to make someone