I couldn’t help but beg my mom to let me dye it on countless occasions. She would never let me do it. “Emma, people pay good money to have your hair and it is gorgeous,” she would explain to me. Me, being young and clueless, I wanted to change it to be like my friends, I wanted to be a blonde. I felt like a fish out of water, yet, most people I came into contact with mentioned my hair was beautiful and special.
When I went to the doctor who diagnosed me for what I really had I was diagnosed with Severe ADHD which means my brain works very fast and makes it so I don't stay focused on one thing. It is what made me so smart because I could work on multiple things at once. I had to try out different medicines and do lots of different types of testing to find the missing pieces. I went back to school and fished the year off and my teacher was in shock of how far Id come. I got A’s in all my classes that
Given my Jamaican heritage, I could never really present such features since my hair is naturally afro-textured and my complexion is caramel-toffee in color. During my childhood, I was always aware of how different I was from most of the other girls. In elementary school, the majority of girls, who were of Hispanic heritage, typically wore their hair in cute ponytails while I wore mine in large plaits with colored clips. The other girls would always bombard me with questions such as "Why don't you wear your hair out?" or "Why can't you just brush your hair to make it smooth?"
To elaborate, in “Mirror Image” When Alice met Mr. Jarred the father of the donated body, they had a conversation about how they both feel about having Alice be in a different body. “‘Your hair. The way you stand, even. Our Gail, she was an early bloomer, always slouched. Your accent is different too.’” (Coakley 18).
Your decisions to comply with society’s view of “beauty” are no longer subconscious, but rather are more conscious-driven decisions. Barbie’s slender figure remains idolized; however, it has evolved from a plastic doll to a self-starving model that is photo-shopped on the pages of glossy magazines. You spend hours in front of a mirror adjusting and perfecting your robotic look while demanding your parents to spend an endless amount of money on cosmetics and harmful skin products to acquire a temporary version of beauty. Consider companies such as Maybelline, which have throughout the ages created problematic and infantilizing campaigns and products for women. More specifically consider the “Baby Lips” product as well as the company slogan, “maybe she’s born with it, maybe it’s Maybelline,” that reiterates the male notions of beauty to which women are subjected.
It’s the beginning of the Kindergarten year. A boy always made fun of how I always had my hair pulled up. It was an everyday occurrence. So I took matters into my own hands, without getting help first. Getting help is what I do when something comes up.
After waiting an hour to go see someone about my arm they had numbed it. The doctor said that I had a high tolerance to pain. I went to go get a cast on my arm and they asked me what colour I wanted and of course I said pink, but there was no pink so I had to settle for red. I was then taken to a room and had laughing gas as I said “I feel funny” and started laughing. I eventually woke up when the cast was done.
Now we come to the day that has totally changed my life. The day that my therapist had told me that whenever I was ready that I would be able to start hormones. My mom and I then went to my doctor and told her that I wanted to be recommend to and endocrinologist. Which we ended up finding a doctor his name was Dr. Newell he reminded me a mixture of Spook and Yoda which I really enjoyed. I would spend the next week waiting and waiting for the paperwork to go through.
Many assume babysitting can be done by any moron that knows how to change a diaper, nevertheless, that’s not true. The last time I changed a diaper was 2 years ago and I refuse to do so again after my 6-month-old cousin decided to pee on my hand. It was like an arrow hitting a target – impressive but painfully accurate. There is hidden intellectualism in this area that plenty doesn’t fully understand. Babysitting can be considered hidden intellectualism because it allows me to adopt intellectual skills such as patience, critical thinking, and time management.
But oddly, it puts a smile on my face. The ponytail replaced the past thoughts of the heavy-handed tugs and the yelling that I had to endure for years just to get MY hair the way SHE wanted me to wear it. It replaced all the agony and echoing laughs from the other kids at school who wondered why my hair looked so “nappy” and why I wore it the same way every day. “This ponytail is replacing the past and creating a path for the future”, I told myself. I was 11 after all, practically a teenager!
When you 're young you don’t really have to worry about any major decisions. Majority of us just worry about what we are wearing today or who do you trust to tell drama and rumors to. Sadly I wasn’t that lucky to just make those decisions. Up until the end of last school year I had scoliosis, which is an abnormal curvature of the spine. Symptoms included extreme back pain to the point where I didn’t want to move, depression, and adding self consciousness to my body image, which I already had plenty of as a 15 year old girl.
“I guess I’ll do the Berliners.” Hazel gave her a thumbs-up and turned away to deal with new customers. Berliner doughnuts were a somewhat tricky process; they involved a lot of mixing until just the right consistency, letting the dough sit for just the right amount of time, rinse and repeat. Ginny had over an hour to leave it to its own processes, and she took the time to set the oven, clean up her mess, and prepare for the next stage. Nobody liked a disorderly stall, particularly not one involving food. In the front, Hazel was trying to upsell nussecken cookies that were about to go stale.
Since the movie Frozen came out in 2013 I was given the name Elsa. When I was younger I wanted to look like anyone else but me. I wanted to dye my hair and eyebrows black, anything that would change my appearance. I have had to overcome my disability as much as possible in many ways. It wasn’t always easy but I was able to figure out a few tricks to help me along the way.