Personal Narrative: I Never Changed Into A Wolf

Moonlight
I haven’t changed into a wolf of my own will since…well it’s been three years. Being in wolf form reminds me too much of my mum, too much of that day, too much of when she died. The only time that I’ve changed in the last three years has been on the turn of the full moon. It’s not like I can help it. The thing about werewolves is that we can turn at will. We can transform anytime of any day. There are some people who simply choose not to turn into their wolf form, while others change as many times as they can. Some like the thrill and become immune to the pain of the change of changing at will But no matter what happens, all werewolves turn on a full moon.
The pain of turning on a full moon is unbearable and horrible. The first few times are the worst, but it doesn’t really get

I know the building. I have seen it once in passing, only to be told that I could not go in there. It’s about 3 miles away from the main house and it doesn’t look like it could hold a mouse let alone a pack of werewolves on a full moon.
“Well that is where we lock ourselves up. I know that it may not seem like it would hold us but it does. It has an old magical enchantment that enables us to be held there and not loose in the forest. Each pack member has their own holding room, you will be with your mother and I for the first few times, just so that we can keep an eye on you.”
I nod again. That is all that I can seem to do. There is so much to take in.
“Autumn, honey. I know that it might sound scary, and yes the first few times will be, but that is what Alpha James and I are here for. To be there for you to be by your side. Nothing is going to happen with us there.
“This is a lot to take in. Can I please go to my room?” I need to be alone. Even if it’s just for a little bit.
“Autumn, you don’t need to be worried okay. Alpha James and I will be with you every step of the way” Mum says again. “But, yes you can go to your room. Remember you can talk to us if you need