Personal Narrative: My First Time As A Baby

My first time having a baby I wasn’t excited nor was I glad , Instead I was sad more like mad not at anybody but myself mostly I was scared and really terrified I almost wanted to die . Because I thought people would look at me differently, I literally thought while delivering him I would die, and that I wouldn’t be able to do for my baby only because I felt like I wasn’t ready to be a mom. I wasn’t going to be able to enjoy my life and do what I want to do with a baby. I had multiple problems during my pregnancy even after I had delivered my child.

As a matter of fact it was October 23, in 2015 when I found out I was pregnant. I was about 18 years young I remember that day like it was yesterday. From there on then I felt like I just couldn’t do it anymore I remember I cried and cried and every little thing went racing

I had my baby with no pain medicine or anything. However I did lose a lot of blood so I had 2 blood transfusions, I was bleeding out a lot. The doctors said that if the bleeding never calmed down I was going to have to get surgery in the morning so I was terrified all over again. I didn’t know till afterwards that it was my delivery doctors first time delivering a child she had cut me the wrong way, I was swollen on one side, and that’s the reason I was bleeding out more than I should have been. In fact I still have pain in that area today as I type and not to say I currently have trouble breathing at times too. Going through all of what I had to deal with having a child makes me never want to have any more kids. Oh by the way I never got the surgery and I was excited the bleeding had calmed down before the morning reached. I admit my experience of giving natural birth was not fun especially with all the consequences I had to face in the end. One precious thing I could say that I got out of all that was my handsome son HIS FIRST BREATH TOOK MINE AWAY NOW WE SHARE MY HEART