In my future I hope to overcome the restrictions that are thrown my way. I have no clue what restrictions I am going to face a month from now, or even ten years from now. But I personally believe that I am going to be my biggest restriction, I am my biggest critic. Fear of criticism and judgement are going to be the next two big restrictions I am going to face. In my sixteen year journey of trying to find who I am as a person, I have always worried too much about what other people think of me.
As well as inspiring me as a person, Ashleigh inspires me as a rider too. Ashleigh inspires me to keep reaching for your goals even if they are far away. Some shows if I did bad I will start to cry a little bit and she will ask what is wrong and I will say I didn 't do very well in that class. She will then tell me that we can’t win in every class that we compete in, and that sometimes we have good days and bad days. She will also tell me to forget about that class and to give it my all for the next class.
Growing up means that when things get hard, you don’t give up or quit, but you will always have your past memories at heart, and you will have to independently teach yourself when there’s no one around to be your teacher. To begin with, a part of growing up means that things will get hard for you, but you need to know to not give up and keep fighting for your hopes and dreams. In the poem, A Mother To Son by Langston Hughes, the author talk about how the mother of a boy has had some tough and hard times. “So boy, don’t you turn back. Don’t you set down on the steps ‘Cause you finds it’s kinder hard.
The Oaks Creature ’AHHH!!! Please Just leave me alone!,’’ James cried, but, no one was there to save him from the awful terrifying bullies. James had been a strange young boy always having weird untamed dreams about his dream life. James had no idea what was going to happen. James hadn’t even made it through the rest of school yet and he had to pass the schoolyard, two more times or as James called it, death row.
It went on for months but I never had the courage to speak up about it because, I felt that no one could help me. The bullying was getting worse so I felt it was time to stand up for myself. I stood up to the bully and she felt threaten that 's when trouble came aboard. She wanted to fight me, and at this point I knew I couldn 't fight at school because I would get in trouble. She kept teasing me, pushing me, and I would tell her to stop but it wasn’t helping.
This past year has been one of the hardest years because, its senior year and college is around the corner. I have been multitasking with school, sports, planning my immense college move, making sure I do outstanding on my college placement test and, all in a matter of not burning myself out. I kept letting myself down and continuously telling myself that I can’t do it. Recently I just got out of my first relationship with the person I would consider to be my first love. I suddenly felt heartbroken and depressed in a way where I wanted to give up in school and felt as if I had no value to my life because, once again I put all the pressure and faults towards myself.
I wake up every morning, feeling like a force of pressure is going to crush me.I feel overwhelmed everyday by every little thing,I sense everyone judging me.I can feel their eyes piercing my heart, but I stand tall, and brave because I choose for Anxiety not to control my life. Living with Anxiety is like being scared and tired at the same time.It's the fear of failure,failing at everything you do but no urge to be productive.To change something about yourself but too exhausted to.It's wanting friends but the feel to hate socializing.Thinking of what to say but instead you just stand there alone in the wind.It's about being alone but not wanting to be lonely, wanting someone to care about you when no one does,caring for everything then caring
I continued having anxiety attacks and they were escalating quickly. Almost anything would trigger me. It would start with shortness of breath, shaking hands, a painfully beating heart. My limbs would fall asleep from hyperventilating. These attacks would almost always happen late at night, when I was alone just worrying about every little thing.
From the start of middle school to the first day of ninth grade I was lost, fearful of going and doing different things or anything that was outside of my “norm.” Even just the thought of leaving that comfort zone forced my thoughts down a dim path of self-deprecation. The last few years that I continued to do homeschool were the worst. As I grew older i started wanting conversations and company outside of my family and myself. I began to feel a crushing force of stagnation. It felt like I wasn’t going anywhere or doing anything, the idea of being stuck in one place not moving was like I was trapped in quick sand.
The doctor said that my voice went out because I spend too much time practicing and eventually my throat got sore. The doctor also said that It's only going to take a few days. I was not ready for this because I had the most important audition of my life. The next day I went to school and told my friends about my situation. My friends included Lucas,Alex, and Maya.
Growing up school was never my forte, but I was always taught to be a student-athlete, not just an athlete. And it never made since to me until I got into my junior year in high school when I had to miss football games due to my grades. I always tell myself to live and abide by these quotes, which are: “Those to the left and right of you are who you will most likely to become, so surround yourself around those of the same goals and interest as yourself”. “Success is what you make it”. “You are not finished when you lose, you are only finished when you quit”.
Eleanor Roosevelt had once stated “You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the think which you think you cannot do.” An interpretation of this is that the only way growth and courage can increase is when the time is taken to perform at the best state possible. This can occurs when there is a challenge which may or may not be extremely difficult, but you must push forward and come out ahead. The Little Rock nine had to endure going to school facing true hatred and constant denigrate each and everyday. They would come home muddled and morose, hoping that the next day it would be better.
It was my last year and all I wanted to do was have fun. I stopped doing my homework and studying for all my tests, I began to worry about boys and all the fun times my friends and I would have. I got suspended and asked to get sent to a anger management school to help me focus a bit more on myself, nobody would have expected that from
To many people this goal was mediocre, but to me, I knew it would take hours and hours of practice and hard work. My mother, who also fills the role of trainer, and I began to piece together how to make my goal reality. First, I had to ride much more often that I already did. Instead of riding three to four days a week, I needed to ride five to seven days a week. With school and other commitments prioritized above sports, I knew that running track would not be in the cards if I wanted to improve my riding.
I have attempted self harm and suicide when I was younger because of being bullied by other kids, verbally abused by my dad and my mind constantly thinking negatively. After those incidents and finally talking to an inspiring and caring teacher, I realized my purpose for why I should still live my life and that everything will be okay in the end. Everything that I 've been through made me who I am today and I 'm very proud of how strong I am. But most people don 't know that side of me because I want to give out positive energy when I 'm around people even if I 'm falling apart in the inside. In conclusion cultural identity isn 't just about race, ethics and what your beliefs are.