This was by far the most difficult challenge I faced in connecting with my students. While students became pretty eager to attend the FIG session throughout the semester, they were not as enthusiastic about doing things outside of the class. The first event I tried to organize was a study session in preparation for the first round of midterms. I chose a location that was very central to where many of them lived and on a day of the week that they said was best. Throughout the week, I constantly reminded them about the study group session, however, on the day of the event, I sadly only had two students attend.
The year and a half I spent after high school wondering what I should do with my life was a pretty low point in my life. I was confused and most of the time thought poorly of myself. College has helped re-invigorate me and helped me see my self-worth again. Going to class and seeing myself succeed made me feel better than I had in quite a while. Then finding a career that I am excited about has helped me be eager for what the future holds.
In the years since I entered school, to the moment that my cap left my hand, I had grown into an entirely new version of myself. The freedom of college in combination with the guidance of so many teachers had led me to turn every negative aspect of myself into something new. With the pride I had gained in being part of something bigger, I became diligent and wholly interested in my studies. I had met so many interesting people who helped me break from my shell, and in doing so I had met some of the greatest friends I have ever had. However, in the scale of my life, these events are of little importance to me in everyday life.
I came to SDSU a little worried about how big the campus was because the area of the campus is bigger than my hometown. I did not know whether I was going to make friends and fit in like I did back home. Going to all of the events around campus has definitely help in getting familiar with the campus and finding people to hang out with. I have found a group of friends that I am excited to get to know more by attending these events with them. The college offers so many opportunities to get involved in many different things.
A lot of aspects in my life changed drastically when I started my first year of high school. I became more matured and dedicated in my education, which made me feel better with myself as I started to improve as a student. Teachers suddenly began to mention college and demand the requirement to know what career you want to make a living of, and reality instantaneously hit me hard. I realized that I had to upgrade my grades and start thinking about my future, something that I have been avoiding for a long time, so eventually, when my grades became higher than usual and the only thing left was to decide what major I was getting in my mind was completely blank. Since I was young I thought that I was convinced about what I wanted to do, but I became aware that what I wanted was a bit unrealistic and as I heard my friends talk about their future with such confidence l felt uncertain about mine.
My “threshold guardian: was most likely myself and my fears. At first, it took me a while to accept my responsibilities and get over my fear of failing and getting nowhere. Now that I am within the “unknown” there are many challenges that I face every day and will continue to face. There is the challenge of finding out what I want to study in college, doing well on standardized tests, and getting good grades in all of my classes. There are also temptations I have to face such as choosing whether to hang out with friends or do the homework that is due the next day.
At the time, I did not know, that Mock Trial was going to change my high school career. During my first year as a trial attorney, I not only improved immensely in my public speaking and communication skills but also made new friends. After a successful year and great scores at two regional competitions, I was truly proud of our team's achievement. However, many members just seemed to be completely disinterested. That is when I decided to step up and ran for the Mock Trial President position with one main goal— to unite the team.
As I we wrap up my spring student teaching placement and inch closer to getting my own classroom, I know feel like I have a better idea of what kind of educator I will be. My spring placement has certainly thrown me some curveballs however, the experience incredibly valuable. I have learned so much about the profession and so much about me. When it came to writing this reflection, one thing that popped into my mind was to look at my Pedagogical Creed that I wrote over the summer in our Methods class. I wrote my creed back in July when I did not have classroom teaching experience.
Although my mentee is different than me in some ways, we have found various ways to connect on other subjects. I have helped my mentee go from making C’s in all of her classes, to now being an honor roll student. We’ve worked each session on study skills, time management and organization. It has been so rewarding seeing her achieve all of her goals she has set for herself at the beginning of the year. Also, aside from grades and school my mentee struggles from a lot of changes that happens in their home.
Acquaintances and family members. Each new life experience gives us a whole new group of people to be around. At eighteen years old, I like to think that I have had numerous unique life experiences that have helped me shape my own life. However, I know that to truly believe that would mean I was the stereotypical college freshman. So, while I am proud of my life experiences and know they have affected who I am, I also know that just like Rosemary in We are all Completely Beside Ourselves, I have a combination of relationships of friends, family, and acquaintances to thank for helping me get this far in