A year ago I was a sophomore. Today I am a senior. My application would be incomplete if I did not explain why and how. I had a rough start to my high school career and below I explain why my attendance is how it is and why my GPA is somewhat low.
When I started high school, I was a very enthusiastic girl. I was excited for life and I could just see myself at graduation when I started my first day and thought about how many things I would have achieved during my high school career. Freshman year I met a guy.He was my first boyfriend. In my naive mind, he showed me he loved me. Everything was well for the first 3 months. I was the happiest girl alive but after our third month anniversary everything changed. He started to become aggressive. I did not know why. He would continuously hurt me psychologically then apologize and “make it up to me” by buying me things. I knew that material things weren’t everything but I accepted them because I thought “ At least he’s trying.” He was broken and he didn’t want to be alone. In just 7 months I went from the girl who believed she could achieve anything if I only put my mind to it, to the girl who struggled with anorexia, depression, and no longer cared about my education. At that point my attendance was horrible
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We moved downtown and I went to West High School. A long way from Aurora. My attendance got worse. I would do anything to see him. I was blind to all that he was doing to me. I was being abused emotionally. One day however, my aunt sat me down and asked me why I had been missing school so much; West had called her. I told her everything that was going on and I broke down. In tears, I realized how much I had changed in so little time and how my life was on a downward spiral. How was it possible that at such a young age I had already reached a point in my life I had lost track of my goals and desires? I had to make a
And things started going good again. I finicky went to school! My school was the district one-room. Then after that I when attended Black River Academy in
It was about two years ago, my sophomore year. Around that time I met this person at one of the footballs games, started talking and we just “clicked” instantly and he soon became one of my bestfriends and he became the person I cared about the most, we did everything together. The problem was that I became a little obsessed, I even went to the extent of pushing my other friends away. But that's all he was in my life, a friend, and I was happy/content with that, but it still hurt to watch him fall in love with another person who I used to be close with. It broke my heart and a part of me felt like I wasn't good enough, I didn't blame anyone but myself.
My dad dropped me off at practice one night and just never came home. My mom called him to see where he was and he told her he wanted a divorce. My mom told my brothers before she told me. I knew something was wrong and I remember Chandler telling me on the way to school one day that our parents were getting a divorce. I acted like I wasn’t upset but I was.
Our relationship followed similar patterns outlined in the text and could me conceptually broken
Personally I learn a lot from this. I’ve learned to never get into another relationship knowing its not going to work out. When you know the person isn’t right for you or change at all. You have to live life to the fullest and worry about yourself. Never regret your choices.
I let him in and gave him whatever I could for make him feel satisfied. I took him out to gone on with my sad life. He wouldn’t go though. I fet as if he actually cared about me, so I kept him and named him Max. Everything
He wasn’t the person he made me believe he was. He was verbally and emotionally abusive to me. I was always being put down and he made me think I couldn’t do anything right. When we were in public I had to act like everything was alright and he was a great guy. I didn’t want anyone to know what was going on, I didn’t know how to explain the whole situation.
High school was difficult for me to put it simply. Throughout almost all of it I was depressed. Caused by one thing or another and always varying in intensity, it was the only persistent aspect of my high school career. There are far too many events, feelings, and thoughts that provoked my spiral that I’m rendered unable to recall them all. Starting with my questioning of the morality of man after reading “All Quiet on the Western Front”, only to be escalated by the stresses of the IB program, then heightened by the worries that came with applying and affording college and my future in general.
He is filled with memories and I felt if I were to let him go, the memories would disappear with him. He made me so happy I thought my happiness would go with him, this was the only thing holding me back. Until eventually, I realized all this pain wasn't worth
I pushed everyone and everything away to focus on him. I needed to take care of him. I told myself this over and over. Eventually, I broke.
I went a week without speaking to him. He would send me messages and would call and I wouldn’t respond. I was sick of it. Here is where the RESPONDING WITH FORGIVENESS comes in. One day I decide to respond and let him know how I felt.
The memories of us laughing together still bring me a small sense of happiness. And the day he turned away from me and let his alter ego take over is a nightmare that still haunts me to this day. I still tear up because of it despite it being five years after that. But the past is in the past.
Everything was good for a couple of weeks. Then we broke up… He made me feel like it was all my fault. In April we found out that we’re having a girl! We were so happy. From then on we just
I started to fall out of love with him and I realized how awful he really was. I was so blind to the way he was treating me based off of the words he would say. How was I supposed to deal with that? It was equally as weird, because for awhile, I could not look at him when we walked past each other in the hallways. I told him everything and the fact that he held my secrets was a major problem.