Standing in that very moment beneath the bright lights, with everyone watching in disbelief, is the sight I will never forget, and the sensation of feeling total accomplishment. Everyone has a fear; the fear of snakes, spiders and so on. My ultimate fear was nothing like those kinds at all. My fear happened to involve a stage and my opposable “beautiful” voice as my family members would say. Yes, yes indeed I had stage fright. I was a thirteen year old seventh grader going to Burton Middle School. I absolutely have a love for music, but I somewhat couldn’t express that publicly. That is why I chose choir as an elective, to see if the class can get me out my comfort zone and for the start of it….it was not going at all well. I was still somewhat the shy type. Apparently, my mom had a discussion with my choral director about me. That’s when everything changed for me and within me. …show more content…
My mom urged me to sign up for as many clubs and activities for me to be more out there, but nothing stood out to me until she told me about the talent show sign-ups Tuesday evening. I was hesitantly thinking about it, but I knew deep down I was too scared to even say or sign a yes. I left to bed giving no answer to my mom and forgot the idea of it soon as I fell asleep. Next morning arrived, and walking into choir was always a good way to start off my day. At least so far that is what I thought, until my choir director came up to me and wanted to discuss the matter about the talent show.
“Breanna, I feel that it is a good opportunity for you to show your amazing voice to the people if you sign up for the school’s talent show.”, she said proudly. Listening to those words gave me a feeling of slight confidence, due to the fact that now I know I am showing progress of growth from my shyness.
Without hesitation or thinking in that moment, I told her, “Yea why not, where is the sign up
I was relieved second semester when other kids transferred over into chorus, growing our chorus slightly. At the end of the year, we had learned that the chorus was trying to put a group together to go to Disney World at Christmas to sing in the Candle Light Processional at Epcot, so when it came time for school to start again in August, the room was full of new people. Once again we could divide our guy section into tenor and bass and divide the girls into Alto, Soprano II and Soprano I. After sending in an audition video, our chorus was selection to join the mass choir for two performances and to prepare, we learned 15 songs. My junior year, I transferred voice teachers because my old voice teacher was moving away.
Joining band had an immense and almost immediate impact on my life. Before being in band I had never had a talent that I felt completely confident in. I enjoyed practicing and spent many hours trying to improve my musical ability. In
I was dressed in concert attire, nervous, and an hour early. I sat in the auditorium room with all the other people trying out. I eagerly waited and watched all of my competitors be pulled into audition halls that held many audition rooms. I was so scared, but I was ready to get it over
There it was, standing in the distance, a tall gloomy gray-colored building. With a few splashes of blue paint added to the dull cement to add color to what would otherwise be a lifeless building. This building was non-other than the one and only Stoller Middle School. I never referred to it as a middle school but more as a prison, it was full of rules that were put in place just to suck away any possible fun from a child’s mind. Maybe I didn’t like the place because I was suspended five times from it.
I have always felt self-conscious in front of large groups ever since that incident in second grade, where I fell face first on to the floor during a stage performance. Oh no, is it happening all over again? I felt my whole world spin around me as I walked up to the center of the stage for our last individual performances in our junior high life. May 25th, 2012; that was the date shown on my white, bulky watch as I inched closer to the mic stand; I just wanted it to end already. Music has always been a means of escape to the fears I had in society.
I got to know people I probably would have never talked to because of it. I even became friends with some of my sister’s friends that are upperclassmen. I wouldn 't have even known who they were or had classes with most of them without us being in show choir. Lots of people may say choir kids are weird and they aren’t very wrong. That’s why it’s important.
This passion continued to grow through high school. I auditioned for Chamber choir in high school under the direction of John Crocker and he made me his choral president after just a year. There was nothing like the feeling of traveling and performing with my choir; whether it was a festival at another high school or Walt Disney Concert Hall in L.A. At one point, we even attended a choral event in New York City and were able to sing in Carnegie Hall with a handful of other lucky choirs from around the states. That was the first time I saw what it took to be in a professional setting: learning new pieces as a group, the discipline, the amount of professionalism we had to maintain; it was simply refreshing. We performed twice in NY, once in the Carnegie Hall and once in a little run down church in the Bronx.
During middle school I became involved with the varsity orchestra; this is where I developed my basic musical and performance skills. I began to crave the talent of singing during my eighth grade year, especially after my dad revealed to me his singing capabilities. Having listening and practicing with different music, I learned to keep a pitch, but I did not have a good vocal tone. My voice was weak, soft, and far from producing the least amount of musicality. For about two years my father
Many times we would be in the car singing and dancing to the tunes she would blast through the speakers. It was not until my middle school days when I began to grow an appreciation for more than just pop, country, and Disney music. It was my first day of 6th grade and I walked into my choir class. I remember my teacher, Mrs. Grady, standing by the door welcoming all of us students by singing. In that classroom, there was an abundance of happiness and joy and because of that I began to associate those feelings with music.
This started about 5 months before auditions. During summer vacation, I was only able to listen to the music. When we got back to school, I started to get serious about auditions. I was really excited to do this musical! I wanted to try out for one of the three main sorority girls.
At a young age, I constantly wanted to express myself through music. I always found a way to incorporate music into my daily life, whether it be by blasting my favorite music, creating my own funky songs, or even having the opportunity to participate in my elementary school choir. My love for music actually took flight after I had decided to join my elementary school choir, however, in my opinion, it is not the most transformative moment in my life. After elementary
It’s something that I do everyday for the most part. I’ve been in either the school choir or a church choir since seventh grade. So, singing was easy for me to pick up because of my love for music. Although I love singing, it’s different singing in a choir then singing on your own. My parents have always told me to sing whenever we have parties at the house, but I was hesitant because I wasn’t confident in myself.
The biggest applause I received from performing music was when I stopped playing midway through a sonata and graciously bowed and smiled off stage. I was also four years old and performing at my mother’s recital. As a pianist, my mother taught me the C Major scale before the alphabet. As a four year old performer, stage fright did not exist in my vocabulary and neither did self-consciousness. As we grow older and become more aware, that boldness begins to fade.
I have learned about how to harmonize well with lots of people when singing. Also, I had been learning how to listen other's singing. It was not very easy at first and everyone's voice was not very mingled with each others. However, I became understanding why Amanda try to teach us hearing others voice, because it sounded much better when we applied her advice. It was a very good experience that I was being in the biggest choir in the University of Minnesota.
When I was a kid, my father constantly criticized my nonexistent vocal technique. As a result of his harsh manner, I began to lack of confidence in my abilities. I looked up to my dad as I believed he was a respectable singer through all of the awards he won in the Philippines, how everyone requested for his voice at parties, and how an audience reacted when he sang. Due to his lack of encouragement, I only sang when he was not there. As a child, I watched a lot of Disney channel movies which had simple songs that every kid at school knew.