I always worry about my children. I fear for their safety constantly. I try not to think about it to much and let it overwhelm me, but the truth is that this fear is always in the back of my mind. The world can be a scary place and accidents can happen in a second. There are many bad people in this world and I fear that I will not be able to protect my children from getting hurt.
How in this world can I make it on my own? I’ll do the best I can. I guess its all part of the master’s plan. I can’t let anyone know, But I feel like I’m drowning in my sorrow. I wonder if we’ll meet again, Or have I lost my best friend.
When I was younger I would just say whatever came to mind but now it was time to get serious. Everyone was always hounding me for picking a career and pressing me into making a choice. Now since I’m in college it makes everything even worse. This made me scared of my future and not living up to expectations. I know that most of them are doing that because they want me to have a life they couldn’t have.
To me no matter what I said it was always wrong somehow. Even though I know it’s not, I have this aching fear that I am wrong. I’m always looking for support, but my parents aren’t people I see as supporting factors in my life. Even though I know that as parents they’d support me through anything, although it’s hard to feel it when it seems like my mom doesn’t support a simple religious decision. I think that a part of me feels missing because I’m missing this connection.
If I didn’t go there I would have my mom help me when she could. I thought every time that he got sick that I was doing something wrong. I was very scared of making the wrong decisions for the both of us. I was kind of thrown in to being a mother not realizing how much work there was. I started to get the hang of things and got a job once he started preschool.
I understand some things and then think about it, what she said to me, just remember “Do not like any other girls anymore, and believe that we will meet you someday on a certain day.” Whether it will really meet again, I am not sure. Needless to say I will only
For instance if my mom is talking to me about something that I do not like, yes I will get upset then I talk back. I know it is wrong but I learn from that because if my mom and I argue about something then I will feel bad because I realized that I just hurt my mom emotionally. So I don’t do that often, it is just at times. My grades are one of a downfall for me. I do my work almost all the time but I will be honest, I am lazy.
That is something I will do more of in the future, I will look for the message God is trying to send me in everything I do in life. Even if what I’m doing isn’t important, God is always present and showing us signs that could help us in any