I want to have that feeling described in books, I want to feel butterflies in my stomach I want to be nervous about some boy I meet, but everything I feel now is fear. It scares me to death to talk to ANYBODY. It could be my mom or my favourite person in the whole world - I can’t talk to him, but at the same time I don’t want to be alone, notwithstanding, I can’t deal with communication and sociality, but the only way to do something is to define my goals. The first thing I could do which wasn’t psychically too painful for me was to go on the internet. I’m not on Facebook and stuff like that, I don’t even own a computer.
It went from high school getting everything done for you to college where you are basically all on your own. It was a big fear for me because I didn’t know what classes to take or which classes would be good for my career which is business. I remember going towards the admission office thinking to myself what am I even going to say or what do I even need to do to start the whole process of class selection. I felt my heart raising, felt empty in the inside and even scared because I really didn’t know what to say to the people in the office. Once entering the office I got nervous and asked for the steps to register for classes then that’s when they sent me to the pathway center.
I constantly felt alone in my thoughts and the way it reflected on my behavior. I kept to myself way more than kids my age usually did. I had to learn to grow up fast due to my setting I grew up in. It didn’t really help my emotions that I was incredibly shy and absolutely despised putting myself out for people to notice. “Maybe you wouldn’t feel all sad and alone if you tried to make new friends at school,” mumbled my Mom.
A few years later, I am here trying to make my dreams come true. I have come a long way from my depression and I have matured considerably, both physically and mentally. I have finally see people who support me and who have helped me. The surrounding people; my family, my friends and teachers, through them, I have learned more about myself. I have survived and I am here soon turning into an adult.
I simply listened and adapted to school and my environment. I was only in the second grade, but I could read and write much better than I thought I ever could. Socializing and interacting with books as well as education became the norm in my household. Forcing my mind to step outside of my box and broaden my spectrum of the world was initially uncomfortable but eventually pleasing and glorious. I transcended beyond my potential as a child because I allowed myself to force past my comfort.
Sure I had the love of my family, but it was difficult going to school feeling alone. But in the eleventh grade, I connected with some people in my classes, that I have the most wonderful friendships with. I sometimes feel as though that they are my sisters at times, when we are hanging out with each other.
From personal experience, before initiating college and during the beginning of college still has been a frightening experience due to feeling fearful of the possibility of failure, fearing my personality as an introvert, feeling incapable of learning, busy life, time constriction, and financial burden. The fear in my personal experience was nervousness and avoidance of, even remotely, thinking about the possibility of taking a different outlook on
As I have a crystal clear sense of my identity, I no longer need to fear "losing" myself, the same number of youths do. A few people appear to show the "fear of responsibility" a case of adolescence in this stage. This dread is not generally so self-evident. As I live in boarding school, most of my time spent far away from home. Subsequently, I turn out to be more intimate with my companions and conversely I feel awkward with my family members.
And everytime I looked out of something high, I would remember those tragic moments. But one day, I decided to overcome my fear because if you don’t overcome those fears, they will take over your life and control it. I also felt like facing your fears is the best way to make them disappear. So from that day on, I promised myself that I would do anything to overcome my fears. Whenever I was at the top of a tall building, I would purposely look down.
This can lead to giving into peer pressure, not doing well academically, as well as losing friends. “ [Unfortunately] social phobia is a common problem that is frequently underdiagnosed and undertreated” (Nydegger 86) People who start noticing symptoms of anxiety when talking to others or in any situation should be evaluated by a professional so that, if they are diagnosed with Social Anxiety, they can get the help that they need to lead a better