Why Writing Is Important To Me

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Have I come to the point where I just don't care anymore? Where is my self respect? Wow that is a door you do not want to open girl. Oh I have serious issues but the important thing is to figure out what they are about. And I have no fucking clue where to start. First I really have to figure out what I wanna do with my life. I am at the moment a goalless, aimless mess. Yes I am a mess. A huge fucking mess. Always was always am always will be. Thank you. Anyway I should find a purpose in life. You know like traveling the world, becoming a doctor etc. The good thing is I started writing again. Well I'm blogging but that counts because I only write. And after 2 months I found out that writing is the best thing to do in this situation. Congratulations to me for not picking that up for 2 months.…show more content…
How could I never seen that coming? Anyway the second thing I have to do is get my life together. After finding a goal I will probably be more exited to do stuff and that's where "getting my life together" shit gets in. I have no idea how I'm gonna do that but we'll see there's still another step to it and I don't think I would be able to get a conclusion on step one anytime soon so we are good. Sometimes I think I'm torturing myself... That's a whole other thing and I'm gonna come to that way later. As step three I have to figure out if I want to stay in Italy or return to Turkey or maybe study for the SATs and go to college in the US like I've always wanted. And that brings up the question: Will I be happy if I go to the US? I mean yeah it has always been my dream since I saw DePaul in like 6th or 7th grade. But I also thought that coming to Milan would rock ass. I was so excited for coming here for the past year. Not a bit of me wanted to stay in Istanbul but still when it was time to move I cried like a bitch. Days and nights, for weeks... Yeah pathetic I
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