I can’t lie and say that I believe I’m enough right now. I may know it in my head, but it’s not something I feel yet, and I'm not sure that gaining that further sense is something I can do on my own. What I have learned from my experience though is that I can never expect myself to succeed in being someone else. I was tasked with this, the impossible, and my inability to do so made me hate myself, but I'm choosing now to reject that, and I would encourage anyone else to do the same. I'm starting over, and while it's overwhelming to know that this could just happen to me again, I have a new mantra to guide me along the way.
Looking back at the marvelous time I had when I was younger, I miss the easy-to-acquire thrills. Whenever I return to Ocean City now as a sixteen-year-old, I’m only with my father. I miss when my mother would get to go down with me to visit him and we would all go to Ocean City together. Although it is still fun just going with my father, I wish I were able to still get the same feeling I did when I was a
I started to feel that no matter how much time and effort I put in my writing will never good enough. Today I hope to be able to get my confidence back in my writing. I hope to gain reading skills and grammar
My plan is to take this year as serious as possible and learn from my previous two years in high school. I know i'm going to have a lot of distractions but I know ill be able to work through them and make this school year as successful as possible. I’m trying to change my bad habits and have things done before I move on to anything else because I don’t want to end up going to another school to recover my credits. That's the last thing I wanna do because I don’t want to be away from this high school I Started here and I want to graduate from
When in reality I need some sort of extra help. I also need to work on following up with situations. I tend to be the person that when I find a solution, I leave it alone. Although, just because I find a solution for the moment, it doesn’t mean that I found the best solution/ it will work entirely. I am trying to better myself mentally for personal relationships moving
It is difficult for me to think of what I want to say and how I want to say it so it’s not a jumbled mess. I have so many ideas it’s hard to organize them so everything flows smoothly. It is also hard for me to write the required amount. A lot of times when I’m finished writing something, I have to go back through and add more to make it longer. Adding lots of detail to my writing is something that I can work on.
Someone once told me that you should follow your dreams no matter how big, or small they are and no matter how hard it is, as long as you are happy that is all that matters. It took me a long time to realize that this person was right. That even if your job doesn’t make you millions you should do what you want. Once I finally realized this it became infinitely easier to find the right career path that I wanted. I believe that all of the accomplishments I have made in the last few years has impacted how I will eventually live my life.
During my younger days I wouldn’t have believed in myself the way that I do now. Before, I was in denial of my own self accomplishments. You tend to grow older and wiser. You begin to see in yourself that not only are you capable of mastering any obstacle that is put in your path, but you are certainly capable of challenging yourself. I used to tell myself, ‘Oh, no, this subject is going to be too hard or rough for you to handle, I am not sure I can do this all alone.’ Without believing in myself, the younger me wouldn’t have even attempted the duty that was in front of me.