The Importance Of Perfection In Life

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As the great Vince Lombardi said, “Perfection is not attainable, but if we chase perfection we can catch excellence.” I am the biggest critic of myself in every aspect of my life. Whether it is in the classroom, on the court, or in my head, I always feel unsatisfied or that I could improve whatever I am doing. I expect perfection from myself all the time, even though I know it is not completely attainable. I guess you could say that I lack self-compassion. At an early age, I was expected to excel in the activities that I was involved in outside of school and in school. My grades are expected to be all A’s, and in sports I am expected to play to the best of my ability. If I do not do so, then my father and I talk about what I can do differently…show more content…
Jump higher. Why didn’t you slam your body on the ground to get a touch on that ball? Everyone is relying on you.” I am very hard on myself on the volleyball court. I expect myself to play perfect every single game, and in this sport, or in any sport “playing perfect” is impossible or at least that is what my coach and everyone that surround me continuously tell me. I can almost hear them in my head repeating themselves over and over and over, like a recording, “Morgan you are doing great, stop being so negative”. My senior year was definitely the hardest season that I have played, physically and mentally. I took on the role of setting, which was definitely out of my comfort zone. I am usually a defensive specialist, which consist of playing defense and passing. Setting was not the position that I wanted to play, one that I felt confident doing, or enjoyed, but my coach thought that if I was the setter then it would give our team the best chance of winning. All I wanted to do was win, so accepting this responsibility was an easy decision. Before many of the games that season I got upset and started crying because I was not setting each ball perfect and I was getting very frustrated. Ideally, a ball that is perfectly set has no spin, like a balloon that floats across the sky. I knew that nobody expected me to set perfect since I was never trained to be a setter, but I…show more content…
Not necessary for myself, but I wanted to prove to everyone in our community, and the other teams, that our team had improved and we were capable of winning and advancing to the next round of sectionals for the first time in my high school career. We played Union County in the first round. We were fully capable of winning, but it was in our hands to make it happen. Before the game, I laid on the floor stretching and trying to calm my nerves. I could smell a mix of buttery popcorn and sweat that made me feel nauseous. As the bleachers began to fill, my anxiety grew. When I began playing, the nerves that I had disappeared and I started to feel comfortable and stopped thinking. This game was the most physically exhausting game I have played. The only breaks that I had were when my coached called a time outs, but this was not enough time to catch my breath due to the fact that I chugged my gatorade. Every point that we lost made me want to play harder and push myself. As we lost the last point, my chest was heavy and my eyes started to burn. I choked back tears of disappointment and dissatisfaction as I told each player on the other team “good game”. Instead of looking around to blame others, I blamed myself. I felt that I did not do enough, and that if I would have played better, or more perfect, then we could have won. Of course the
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