You Brought Me Shame Analysis

"You brought me shame!"

"I should never have let you live!"

"You 're a cursed child!"

"You 're a disgrace!"

"You 're the root of all my sufferings!"

"i should have left you to die!"

Bell always hear one of this lines everyday from his birth mother. He always hear these sentences over and over from the time he could understand what was happening. These sentences are often associated with a slap or a punch or a kick or a hit using a stick or broom but the worst of it is having experienced all of those at the same time most especially if his mother is having a very bad day.

These sufferings he is experiencing started pretty early in his life, long before he understood what was happening. But Bell didn 't hate his mother for it. He just

He started to learn how to clean. First his own mess then his room then it extended to his whole house. He also learned how to cook and do the laundry at a tender age. He never complained and never demanded anything from his mother. He never had new clothes. Some of his clothes during his infancy would surely not fit him anymore and since his mother didn 't but anything from him, he uses some of his "father 's" leftover clothes. His "father" is someone he haven 't met even once in my life. One time he asked his mother about it, he received a beating that left him with a big bruise in the face and stomach. After that he never asked for his father again. Back to clothes, he improvised by using his "father 's" old clothes by cutting and tying them together with whatever he

- Bell

Congratulations on turning six. Wait a minute. I 'll give you somthing to commemorate your birthday with. - Susan

Bell didn 't understand what Susan was doing. He thought 'Aunt Susan is really kind to teach me how to pray. But what does she have to take inside her house? What is it for? ' As he is lost in his thoughts, Susan returned with a basket of fruits and a necklace.

I 'm back Bell. Here. For you. - Susan

What is this for, Aunt Susan? - Bell

It 's your gift. This one has pears and apples and grapes in it. And this one is a rosary. For praying to God. You have to wear it in your neck. - Susan

But I don 't have any money. I can 't give you anything. - Bell

No. I am not selling this to you Little Bell. It 's a gift. To commemorate your birthday. - Susan

What 's a "gift"? - Bell

You mean you never had a gift before in your birthday? - Susan

No, I didn 't have any. Is that needed in a birthday? - Bell

It isn 't but it is part of celebrating one 's birthday. Gifts are given freely and you don 't need to buy it or barter anything for it. Now that I think about it, your clothes are too big and old for you. Don 't you have anything your size to wear? Didn 't you mom buy you some? -