Proctor was telling Abigail that he is never going to do a sin of committing adultery again like he did. On page fifty you see that Proctor feels a lot of guilt and is starting to feel worse. You can tell he is feeling bad on how he wasn’t loyal to his wife. Abigail says, “Him! Oh, John, I will make you such a wife when the world is white again!
It is revealed that as soon as he had an affair with Abigail, he confessed to Elizabeth the next day because of the guilt he was carrying around. Also in Act 4, he was highly conflicted over whether or not to confess to working with the devil to escape death. In the end, he decided lying was a sin he did not want to commit and chose to die a honest man rather than survive as a deceptive man. So in the end it is clear to see that John Proctor still is a good man despite his short-lived affair with Abigail. He was an honest, good-hearted man who wished for nothing more than to live a good life with his wife and children.
Abigail is the girl that John Proctor had an affair with. In The Crucible Betty Parris says, “You did. You did! You drank a charm to kill John Proctor’s wife! You drank a charm to kill Goody Proctor!” (Miller 1244) Even before we know a lot about Abigail we find out that she resorted to “devil work” to try and get rid of John Proctor’s wife.
It’s more entertaining than surprising to watch John struggle with his pride, as he attempts to convince himself that he is a man of God who simply committed a deed as a will of social deterioration, rather than a blasphemous mistake that would call into question his character. Christian men of the seventeenth century were entirely reliant on the social constructs of not only having a tough stereotypically male nature, but also holding on to faith as a means of filling in his heart. This is seen by his demand that Mary tell Judge Danforth the women are liars, as he is not willing to complete the task himself. Danforth, sees through the plot and traps John by telling him that his wife, Elizabeth, is pregnant. The moment is furthered when Abigail enters the room, and gets rid of John’s hope at convicting her by accusing Mary herself of being a
John says to Elizabeth, “ I have been thinking I would confess to them, Elizabeth” (Miller 135). This quotes shows that although John does not want to be hung, but he has a hard time evening thinking about confessing. The more John thinks about it he signs his name and admits to witchcraft, but after realizing what he has done he rips the paper up and goes to the wagon to get hung. This all shows how the fear of death almost over powered him and he almost lost his reputation that he was very proud of and wanted to keep. In the The Crucible, John Proctor’s motivation shifts from fear to redemption, which causes him to be accused of witchcraft.
He no longer continued his relationship with Abigail, who privately terminated his sins. He is the most honest man to regret breaking his marriage vows. "Proctor: She only thought to save my name!" (pg.). John Proctor Despite his moral exclusion, he did love his wife and family very much.
Because John cannot seem to remember his ten commandments while Hale is questioning him, “he is stuck. He counts back on his fingers, knowing one is missing” (67). Proctor is purposely trying to stall because he does not want to state the commandment about committing adultery. Nevertheless, John did have an affair with Abigail, but he does not want Hale to know because he fears he will be seen as a bad man. The seemingly amiable, Christian man does not want to have his honorable reputation taken away.
Proctor tossed away Abigail, lost his faith in Elizabeth and has lost his love for God. Proctor believes there is nothing left for him. He chooses to hang because he has lost his will to live. John also choose to hang because he cannot bear to live without Elizabeth, but she does not want to love him even though he will help raise their children. Abigail, also, leaves John because he chooses Elizabeth.
A man of conscience is one who is aware of his moral and ethical beliefs and judgments and one who will prefer right over wrong. The life of such man is ruled by the desire to seek the truth and justice in all that surrounds him, including himself. These attributes are seen in both character, John Proctor from Arthur Miller’s play, “The Crucible”, set in Salem in the early seventeenth century and in Atticus Finch from Harper Lee’s novel, “To Kill a Mockingbird” set in New York in 1950. In the play “The Crucible” set in the town of Salem which is burdened by the belief of witches, we are introduced to the main character John Proctor. John has the conscience of an honest man even though he has committed a severe sin, which he hides, adultery.