And you have to talk for interviews, speak right up in front of boss. Don`t you knew that? You`re so dumb. ``(181). This is one of her fears, not to be accepted by the American society, because that means she will never leave behind her parents` tradition, a tradition that she does not respect or desire for her.
Also worrying about not being able to portray the feelings in my poem to my audience made me fall into a high level of stress which resulted in missing some of the lines in my poem. This was due, from what I recently learned, because as an INFP, I do not have a high level of tolerance to stress (Human Metrics Inc., 1998-2016.). Now if I had known the information I have recently learned about my personality type I would have handled this situation differently. I would not have focused on trying to read my poem and having it connect with the feelings and emotions of everyone in the room. I believe that seeing the faces of boredom and disinterest in my classmates made me stress about my performance even more.
At first, the social peculiarity given to me by my migration status and language limitations made me a victim of bullying, which made me want to go back to the safety and similarity of my home country. However, the persistent nature engraved in me by my parents did not allow me to give in to the constant discriminatory voices that kept telling me that I would never be "American" enough.
Even after making this decision and beginning a law suit again Red Rock, there were many times I attempted to back out of this decision. I worried that the courts would not believe what I had to say and that I may face punishment if they thought I lied about my testimony. Despite knowing myself and knowing what I experienced, I still had this extreme doubt. I fear that I have made the environment worse for the staff still employed at this establishment. As of January 12, 2016 I have received the notice that the courts have found reasonable cause in my favor and therefore have believed my story.
Well, I have, and that lead me nowhere but dealing with the cops and the courts and my mother yelling at me like I stole something which I don’t understand why because she was allowing this wrongful action for a long time. Also this action left my granny just disappointed praying for the best for me. And this action just left me scared to death wishing that I was doing what I was suppose to do to keep my freedom. Driving
So I just decided not to. My first year was rough, I had a lot of bullies, they didn’t like that I was trans, they scared of me, and hated. I didn’t understand it and tried it alone, but it got nowhere. By sophomore year I had changed the way I did things, I built a support system, and I defeated what was keeping me down. I wanted to help other kids like me, so I founded my schools first independent
I always thought that I was “too awkward” and that I wouldn’t be able to “fit in.” Keeping to myself and to a few friends would be the best option for me. Or so I thought. Over the years, I had let many opportunities pass in fear of being different. My choices left me with regret to the point that all I can think about is how I should’ve said yes.
This was not an easy day for any of us and I was not mentally stable enough to make a choice from this change. Everyone seemed to be arguing, people were yelled at back and forth, different thoughts were debated as if one side was right and right in the moment I decided to leave that environment. I do not know if it was the best for me to do but I could not be there anymore and isolated myself but other managed to find me. “What’s the matter ?
I'm from the Dominican Republic and I have 4 years living in the United States. When I came to the united states I was 13 years old, it was not easy for my brother and me to start a new life in another country without our mother. Learning another language was the hardest things I have ever done in my life. Being an immigrant it's not easy, I’m in a country that is not mine, so I had started from the beginning. And the beginning will be difficult.