Personal Narrative-It's My Life

Well here 's my life

I’ve known my whole life that my sister was the favorite child, that my parents hated me and that I was the mess up even though I was the youngest. Usually, the first child is like a trial run and after that, you figure things out as a parent but for my family, it is swapped. I 'm the youngest, the second child, supposed to be the favorite and the better one. But instead, I 'm the mess up. When I was about 5 I cleaned our whole bonus room by myself and instead of telling my mom that I did it I told her that my sister and I did it together so that my sister would get a prize too, to make her like me. But that didn 't end up working out my mom thought that my sister did all the work instead of what really happened. When I was growing up I would always be the one in trouble even if I was following my sister 's league I would get in trouble for things and I didn 't even know why I

She would say that this time is different and that we will fix this to make you feel better. You know how I know that? Because every single time that I say anything about this she says that this time will be different and that we will fix things. But you know what? It never happens, ever, no matter how many different times/ways I have to say it, it just doesn 't seem to get to her that nothing will ever change this family can 't change we just go back to our old ways no matter what. And now I cant handle it anymore honestly the only thing that is keeping me here is my animals because without them I would be gone. I 've never told anyone this but back when I was cutting, every day after school I would have a panic attack because of something that my parents said and that is the reason why I was so down, depressed and anxious I feeling that there was no one that was out there willing to help